Post by Toasted Cheese on Jan 17, 2019 22:57:25 GMT
) I have been neurotic about many things that life has confronted me with. However, being gay was never one of them. Never once did I want to not be gay. I have no idea how that one missed me. I kissed my first boy when I was in second grade. He simply stood there and looked at me. There was no hostility whatsoever. Wow. What a sweet memory.
From what you recall Mr. D, do you remember growing up around ignorant and prejudicial comments and attitudes from family members, friends, neighbors, school kids....etc?
I DID grow up neurotic regarding my homoness and not playing the 'victim' here by saying this, I did grow up around many bigoted and abusive attitudes. At the time I felt 'victimized', but as a child, couldn't put this into proper perspective. I also grew up not too confident either. That was a parental conditioning too. At any rate, I have survived them and still am.... 
Not that I minded how my gayness made me feel inside, which I was aware of as a wee lad and as it was a part of me that was normal, but from a psychological perspective as how many others saw homosexuality and not normal, it did disturb and rattle me.
How sweet! You kissed your first boy in second grade. Was he a school chum, or just a kid you thought was cute? I had school friend in early primary, and we would walk around holding hands occasionally. He was a nice friend to have, but he also had a lot more confidence about himself, was more socially pro-active and I grew up more troubled.