OT - I have a Disability

I know that this is the "FILM GENERAL" Board and not really the place to post something like this (I also haven't spoken to The Admin about doing this here on this Board, with respect to him I feel that this should be all on me by myself) but since this is the Board that I visit and post on the most and more importantly, because I know that I have annoyed, angered, ticked off, and made angry a lot of people on the "FILM GENERAL" Board with my constant bumping, repeated threads, and hogging Page 1 of the Board with all of My Posts (which The Admin has indeed warned me about, he gave me the warning almost 2 months ago and I have cut back on it but I do admit that I still have done it several times since then and I do apologize to The Admin and everybody else here for it), I even have had to put 2 people (I won't say their names) on IGNORE because 1 was attacking me with insults, mocking me with sentences that I would use to bump my posts, and accusing me of cursing at them about something which wasn't true and the other was also mocking me with sentences that I would use to bump my posts.

I was actually also on YOUTUBE last night watching a WWE Fan's Live-Stream and at 1 point during it, I was so Angry, Annoyed, and Frustrated by what I was seeing on "MONDAY NIGHT RAW" week after week, month after month, and year after year and so I said something really stupid (I would rather not say what, I feel horrible about it) and The Streamer and a heck of a lot of his Fans all attacked me for it. I did apologize to him, explained myself, and everyone else in the Stream and he replied back to me and said that it is all good and that he hope I enjoy his streams.

The Main Reason why I am making this Post here on the "FILM GENERAL" Board to all of you and here on this Board and more importantly, the Main Reason why I have been doing what I have been doing (and I know I have talked about this before) is because My Name is Anthony and I actually have a Disability.

My Official Diagnosis is "Asperger's with Acute Anxiety" which basically means that I know a heck of a lot (even things that I didn't even want to know in the first place, I just either heard, watched, read, and saw either by accident or just because I was bored) and also that I get anxious, nervous, scared, annoyed, or angry over little things very easily.

I do really want to say though that even though I have this Disability, I myself have actually never really looked at it as a Disability or an Illness but just simply apart of who I am. I have never been ashamed to admit that I have it or even have a conversation with people about it. In my life, I have actually tried my best to use My Diagnosis in ways that can help me grow as a person and become smarter and more intelligent. I am 35 years old now and even though it still affects me (and I know that it will continue to do so for a very long time, IT IS NOTHING FATAL, DANGEROUS, OR BAD THOUGH, DON'T WORRY! ), I have still never let it once stop me and I have no intentions of ever letting it do so and in a strange way, I am actually proud that I have it mainly because it has indeed helped me to grow as a person.

To The Admin and to all of the People here on the "FILM GENERAL" Board that I have made Unhappy, I owe you this Explanation and I am truly sorry for Any Negativity that I have shown or made you feel. I am indeed doing my very best that I can and I am never going to stop that, I will keep doing my best for as long as I live (I want to make it to 100 ) and if there is anybody here who feels that that is simply still not good enough and that I should either leave IMDB2 or take a very long break from it then please let me know, I will understand completely and not hold any negativity against you at all. I absolutely mean that.

Thank You Everyone for reading this and hearing me out, I appreciate it.

Anthony