Post by Deleted on Jan 24, 2020 7:15:15 GMT
I feel ya, man.
When I was younger, I was diagnosed with many afflictions-- anxiety and compulsive behavior not the least of them-- before I gave up on the "psychotherapy" game and just decided to wing it.
Just tonight, in fact, I smoked what the kids these days call "killer bud" and it gave me a full blown existential crisis. I ran the gamut from solipsistic to nihilistic to altruistic to messianic; the whole nine yards as far as the human mind can go. Definitely put a few stretch marks on the old grey matter. Maybe it was laced. Anywho, it wasn't my first time being there, not by a long shot, but I wouldn't rate it as an ideal state of mind. It's a hard pill to swallow and I think if you suffer from extreme anxiety, you're always living on that tenuous mental ground. It can feel like you're walking across a tarpaulin stretched over an endless void. You feel isolated and like the world could just drop out from under you at any moment.
I don't have great advice for people in this state but there are a few precepts I'd like them (and you) to keep in mind:
1. You're not alone and it's not just you in existence.
2. People-- your fellow travelers-- are generally predisposed to want to help one another and you. Accept their aid and do your best to help them if you can.
3. It's okay to be afraid but fear is only one of many things you can experience in life. Hope and joy are every bit as tangible.
Best of luck, dude. A therapist might help out-- it's good to have somebody you can be completely open with-- but ultimately they're just there to get you over that fear of being yourself or of the world at large and to not feel so alone and helpless in the world. If you can accept that as a way of thinking, to just accept who you are, to understand your fears but not be conquered by them, and to not sweat it too much because you're not the only one who's been through it, well, you can save a lot of money at least.
When I was younger, I was diagnosed with many afflictions-- anxiety and compulsive behavior not the least of them-- before I gave up on the "psychotherapy" game and just decided to wing it.
Just tonight, in fact, I smoked what the kids these days call "killer bud" and it gave me a full blown existential crisis. I ran the gamut from solipsistic to nihilistic to altruistic to messianic; the whole nine yards as far as the human mind can go. Definitely put a few stretch marks on the old grey matter. Maybe it was laced. Anywho, it wasn't my first time being there, not by a long shot, but I wouldn't rate it as an ideal state of mind. It's a hard pill to swallow and I think if you suffer from extreme anxiety, you're always living on that tenuous mental ground. It can feel like you're walking across a tarpaulin stretched over an endless void. You feel isolated and like the world could just drop out from under you at any moment.
I don't have great advice for people in this state but there are a few precepts I'd like them (and you) to keep in mind:
1. You're not alone and it's not just you in existence.
2. People-- your fellow travelers-- are generally predisposed to want to help one another and you. Accept their aid and do your best to help them if you can.
3. It's okay to be afraid but fear is only one of many things you can experience in life. Hope and joy are every bit as tangible.
Best of luck, dude. A therapist might help out-- it's good to have somebody you can be completely open with-- but ultimately they're just there to get you over that fear of being yourself or of the world at large and to not feel so alone and helpless in the world. If you can accept that as a way of thinking, to just accept who you are, to understand your fears but not be conquered by them, and to not sweat it too much because you're not the only one who's been through it, well, you can save a lot of money at least.