Post by Prime etc. on Nov 2, 2020 22:47:05 GMT
I have OCD so anxiety is almost constant.
It was bad the last couple of days--a chronic feeling of dread and melancholy and depressing thought focus.
I have come close to a panic attack but I doubt it has been as intense as a real one.
I have had situations where I was buying stuff at a store and had to leave--but that was due to OCD ritual obsessions. The cashier changed and it made me panic about rituals...one time I had an awful situation where I was really upset and frustrated and was walking in a store--muttering to myself, and I went outside and sat down and noticed this big guy with tattoos standing near and kind of smiling. later I realized he was someone I had inadvertently passed in the store 2-3 times and he must have thought I was harassing him or his family or at least was curious. I saw him leaving the store and looking back in my direction. This was 5 years ago. Fortunately I haven't had a really bad anxiety incident in 3-4 years.
But the depression-anxiety fits I get since then aren't wonderful either.
Like a depression migraine or having some uncomfortable hat on your head and you just cannot remove it until it falls off on its own.
It was bad the last couple of days--a chronic feeling of dread and melancholy and depressing thought focus.
I have come close to a panic attack but I doubt it has been as intense as a real one.
I have had situations where I was buying stuff at a store and had to leave--but that was due to OCD ritual obsessions. The cashier changed and it made me panic about rituals...one time I had an awful situation where I was really upset and frustrated and was walking in a store--muttering to myself, and I went outside and sat down and noticed this big guy with tattoos standing near and kind of smiling. later I realized he was someone I had inadvertently passed in the store 2-3 times and he must have thought I was harassing him or his family or at least was curious. I saw him leaving the store and looking back in my direction. This was 5 years ago. Fortunately I haven't had a really bad anxiety incident in 3-4 years.
But the depression-anxiety fits I get since then aren't wonderful either.
Like a depression migraine or having some uncomfortable hat on your head and you just cannot remove it until it falls off on its own.