I've thought a lot about suicide and near death experiences

I've thought a lot about suicide and near death experiences Sept 29, 2017 12:38:04 GMT

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Post by Deleted on Sept 29, 2017 12:38:04 GMT

Sept 29, 2017 12:35:33 GMT Terrapin Station said:

Sept 20, 2017 0:18:46 GMT @mellomoviereview said:

...lately.

Im not saying I'm going to kill myself or anything.

However, I've had a lot of passive thoughts about "what's the point?"

I see life for what it is. We live, we procreate, we die. So the next gen can do it again.

Whats my purpose or point? Why bother? What do I have to live for?

The near death experiences come in with me being curious about after life. If I knew I'd be okay would I just go there, would that change my mind about my purpose? Idk... I have insomnia and I lay in bed thinking about this a lot...

Do you not enjoy anything? If so, why not just concentrate on the stuff you enjoy?

If you don't enjoy anything, you probably have depression a la a "chemical imbalance" and you can be treated for it.

Yeah, my dad has Major Depressive Disorder. He couldn't hold down a job, slept all the time, weight fluctuated. He'd quit a job thinking it was the root of his unhappiness etc... Then in his mid-30s he started seeking a psychiatrist's help, started an anti-depressant and he's like his old self. He's had the same job for over 20 years now, active, happy, etc..

I know that's what I have, but I don't want to take meds. I know that sounds crazy, but sometimes I enjoy the depression, other times it's too much.