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Post by Shane Falco on Aug 18, 2021 7:09:56 GMT
It depends on the day. I'm somebody that suffers from chronic depression (tmi I know, sorry) so I basically live my life day by day. Have I thought about death? Of course. Do I fear death itself? No. Do I fear how I die? Yes. The idea of dying can almost be relaxing to me. Morbid I know. But the fear is simply in how I die as I dont want it to be painful. I'm of the mind that if I were to get cancer per say (family history), I'd probably accept death and forgoe the treatment (depending on the stage of cancer that is) and just live my life best I could. I feel I am too young to have a will. Id prefer to be cremated but its not overly important as my thought process is, I'm dead wtf do I care after that? Same goes for a funeral. I dont need one. Funerals are for the people mourning not for the person dead. I dont believe in God so I dont believe in heaven or hell. The idea of reincarnation is fun but in reality I think once you're dead you're just gone from existence and there is simply nothing more too it. My fear is if I were to die, how my brother gets taken care of. I have no wife (honestly not even interested in the idea) so that doesn't impact my thought. My dream would be to live in a cabin in the middle of nowhere, maybe in the woods with me and my brother. That is about as bucket list as I could get. That and hooking up with Emma Watson that is.
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Post by sdm3 on Aug 18, 2021 8:10:02 GMT
I think about death rather often, and while I don’t fear it in general I am afraid it might be painful, and I don’t want that. Other than that I don’t fear death at all, many days I feel like I would be better off dead than alive, I feel that I might be at peace if I was dead instead of dealing with my issues/demons that I have right now. I don’t know if there’s an afterlife, I tend to think there isn’t one but who really knows what happens when you’re dead, and there might be an afterlife, I kind of hope there’s some kind of an afterlife but I tend to doubt it. I’ve contemplated suicide plenty of times and came close to attempting it once as a teenager but I don’t think I’ll ever do it, like I say, I’m afraid of the pain or of something going wrong. And I do have things in life that I enjoy, enough to keep me from taking my own life. But I am very lonely and depressed much of the time, and not many people would care if I killed myself, I do not have close relationships with many people. So those are my feelings about death - rather morbid I know, but that’s how I feel. As klaw said, you’re valued by the people on this board, X. If you were gone, we’d care - that’s for damn sure. |
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Post by sdm3 on Aug 18, 2021 8:14:35 GMT
It depends on the day. I'm somebody that suffers from chronic depression (tmi I know, sorry) so I basically live my life day by day. Have I thought about death? Of course. Do I fear death itself? No. Do I fear how I die? Yes. The idea of dying can almost be relaxing to me. Morbid I know. But the fear is simply in how I die as I dont want it to be painful. I'm of the mind that if I were to get cancer per say (family history), I'd probably accept death and forgoe the treatment (depending on the stage of cancer that is) and just live my life best I could. I feel I am too young to have a will. Id prefer to be cremated but its not overly important as my thought process is, I'm dead wtf do I care after that? Same goes for a funeral. I dont need one. Funerals are for the people mourning not for the person dead. I dont believe in God so I dont believe in heaven or hell. The idea of reincarnation is fun but in reality I think once you're dead you're just gone from existence and there is simply nothing more too it. My fear is if I were to die, how my brother gets taken care of. I have no wife (honestly not even interested in the idea) so that doesn't impact my thought. My dream would be to live in a cabin in the middle of nowhere, maybe in the woods with me and my brother. That is about as bucket list as I could get. That and hooking up with Emma Watson that is. Hold on, Falco. I know from experience that dealing with depression isn’t as simple as “just try to cheer up” (no matter how much some people think it is) but we’re a tight community here, and each member is important to each of us. Take it one day at a time and focus on your passions and loves in life. |
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Post by Shane Falco on Aug 18, 2021 10:20:59 GMT
It depends on the day. I'm somebody that suffers from chronic depression (tmi I know, sorry) so I basically live my life day by day. Have I thought about death? Of course. Do I fear death itself? No. Do I fear how I die? Yes. The idea of dying can almost be relaxing to me. Morbid I know. But the fear is simply in how I die as I dont want it to be painful. I'm of the mind that if I were to get cancer per say (family history), I'd probably accept death and forgoe the treatment (depending on the stage of cancer that is) and just live my life best I could. I feel I am too young to have a will. Id prefer to be cremated but its not overly important as my thought process is, I'm dead wtf do I care after that? Same goes for a funeral. I dont need one. Funerals are for the people mourning not for the person dead. I dont believe in God so I dont believe in heaven or hell. The idea of reincarnation is fun but in reality I think once you're dead you're just gone from existence and there is simply nothing more too it. My fear is if I were to die, how my brother gets taken care of. I have no wife (honestly not even interested in the idea) so that doesn't impact my thought. My dream would be to live in a cabin in the middle of nowhere, maybe in the woods with me and my brother. That is about as bucket list as I could get. That and hooking up with Emma Watson that is. Hold on, Falco. I know from experience that dealing with depression isn’t as simple as “just try to cheer up” (no matter how much some people think it is) but we’re a tight community here, and each member is important to each of us. Take it one day at a time and focus on your passions and loves in life. Love ya. Love our fantasy talks. I get what you're saying. I live life day by day. My autistic brother (who is the best human I know) as well as my retired father live with me. Yet I deal with depression that my 70 year old father is of the mindset (get over it). I cant discuss it with him, I only do so through therapy. Just know, at this time I'm good. I appreciate the concern/reply. |
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Post by Midi-Chlorian_Count on Aug 18, 2021 13:05:23 GMT
When I was younger I used to hope I would die in a Horrace Goes Skiing style accident, i.e. ran over by an ambulance.
Loved the irony. However, nowadays I sometimes fantasize that I would be killed by being knocked over by some fat family, absent mindedly pulling their car out too quickly from a McDonald's drive thru while I'm out for a run jogging past...
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Post by Rufus-T on Aug 18, 2021 16:16:33 GMT
Talking about life & death, I love this video:
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