if all i had was a stutter

if all i had was a stutter




like any half decadent historian
i
often times find
myself
thigh deep in oceans of
paperwork.


keeping track of it all
catagorizing
along with sorting
and
the ever present 
circular file looming
it's
time consuming to say the least.


and then there's
claudius
tiberius claudius caesar augustus germanicus
yes
that claudius
who
had to rule an entire empire
and
still find time to scribble.


all the while history was to nibble
and tempt him
around every precipice and accomplishment
with very little time to vent
or even contemplate
the duplicity
in the culminating tragedies
he inherited.


so i'm thinking
should i be thankful that i am just slow of speech
not even fit to preach
or
be grateful 
that emperors are slaves to time
and i am not inclined
to rule
over anyone 
fool enough to think they are divine.







sjw 06/29/18 inspired at this very moment in time by one of my one hundred: tiberius claudius caesar augustus germanicus.







from the 'benevolent series of poems